| So SLEEPY |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|02:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | School | ] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  sleeepy | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Mykee has my Ipod =( | ] |
So this weekend was sad/fun... it was sad, mainly because ill miss katies grandma and that being at a funeral brought back a bad memory of my cousins. I HATE funerals. Theyre sad and they creep me out. It was fun because i hung out with James and Katie which was wayyy too fun, and James let me drive his car home =) it was sooo fun. Katie and I got crunk in the garage and blasted music. LOOOONG story.
OTHER THAN THE WEEKEND BEING TIRING...
Today [monday] im sooooo tired..This whole day light savings shit really threw me off. I dont think that time should be messed with like that..I dont understand it. PLUS, it throws people off.
ESPECIALLY, when you lose an hour of sleep. I forgot to set my clock forward and so i thought i was waking up at 4:30... AND it just felt like i woke up at 4:30 as well...
GAYYYY |
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| TAing for mrs. leber... wtf |
[Mar. 30th, 2006|02:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | School | ] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  kill me. | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Family Force 5 | ] |
WOW, TAing for the worst women ever is horrible!
shoot me now.
=)
the end. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 10th, 2006|09:40 am] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  hyper | ] |
Online math classes can kiss my fat white ass...
holy balls, i have a lot of snow at my house. Next week is spring. Its just weird that its snowing... |
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| Its not like anyone ever reads this anyways so BAM! |
[Feb. 21st, 2006|10:59 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Head Automatica | ] |
So, lately my dad has been a fucking ass hole. Yelling, and then some. Ive come to the decision that if he does what he does, one more fucking time, im leaving. I dont know where id leave to, but im just getting out. I cant stand to live with him. There are times where i wish my mom and him would get a divorce and he would move out or we would move away from him. But thats not going to happen. He's always told me "You are a disapointment" and that he never wanted me. And that i truly was a mistake. Just the other day, we were talking about me getting my lisence and he said not until i get my grades up, well, my fucking grades are up. But he says "Pshh, yeah right. Ill believe it when i see it." cus you know, thats just so helpful. Hes a real boost of confidence. NOT. I mean, there are times when hes really cool and i like him. But ive never really loved him like a daughter should love their dad. Ive never been a daddys girl. I always wanted to be one. But i never was. When i was little i would get jealous of other girls i played softball with whos dad's were always on the bleachers watching and who ran to give them a big hug after their game. Yeah, my dad never did that. He just sat.And when the games were over, he'd walk way way ahead of me to the car. He has always ignored me. There are even pictures to prove it...Thats sad. When someone can ignore someone so much that there a fucking pictures to prove it...wow. There have only been a few times when my dad has been proud of me. Most of it juts pointless stuff. But it still made me feel good. It made me think, "hey, he;s actually proud of me. wow" and then later in the day he tells me he has never been and never will be proud of me...
I dont know why im typing this out. Maybe its because i know no one reads my things. So no one will know what im even talking about. Except Mykee might know a little of what im saying on this pointless, waist of time, entry.
Whatevvv |
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| This sond explains fucking EVERYTHING. So read it. |
[Jan. 28th, 2006|08:27 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | All-American Rejects | ] |
"Can't Take It"
You speak to me
I know this will be temporary
You ask to leave,
but I can tell you that I've had enough
I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go
Step up to me
I know that you've got something buried
I'll set you free
You set conditions, but I've had enough
I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go
Come back home, won't you come back home?
You step in line, you got a lot to prove
It comes and goes
Yeah, it comes and goes
A step in time, yeah it's a lot to move
I know this will be temporary
I know this will be temporary
I know this will be, but I've had enough
I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go
I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 28th, 2006|12:59 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  irritated | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Lindsay, [mykee should be fucking proud] | ] |
All of my friends are drugies.
minus a few.
the ones i never thought would ever be like they are.
wow.
I guess you shouldnt assume things.
then again,
i dont know. |
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| sleep overs. |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|12:29 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  I feel icky =( | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Britney Spears MEGAMIX | ] |
So i stayed the night at mykees last night. And id have to say, listening to nancie telling us her story while she was shit faced, made my week. Not only was that fun/funny to listen to, just kickin it with Mykee was fun. I was lame and boring though and i dont know why...But i still had fun atleast.
Next time the sleep over is at my house =)
<3 |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|12:31 am] |
| [ | MMMood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | 30 Seconds To Mars- The Kill | ] |
Lame...
tonight i didnt do anything. i cleaned my room and watched a movie. woo hoo...
i dont want to live here anymore. |
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| Last night ugh. |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|01:03 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| | i feel like a fucking retard | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | nothing | ] |
Last night was horrible. Today better be goo considering its the last day of break and thats depressing. I feel like a retard for what i said to mykee. I wish i never said anything. This whole break kind of sucked. I dont think im going to school tomorrow...
bye |
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| venting |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|08:42 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  I could kill someone right now | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Nine inch nails | ] |
Fuck today.
So, i dont see why people have to be suck ass holes to other people. I mean, i know im an ass hole to people, but not fucking randomly. I know people are going through hard times in their lives, but they arent the only ones dealing with things. And just because youre dealing with something that makes you sad or mad, doesnt mean you should take it out on other people. What the fuck is that about? Sometimes i dont get it. So im done cutting slack for people, if youre a douche bag just randomly because youre haveing a bad day, week, month, year, or life, please just fuck off and suck a dick or something so i dont have to hear you complain and bitch at me or anyone else anymore.
^ That most likely made NO SENCE AT ALL, but it did in my head, and i needed to vent.
please fuck off. |
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| FUCKERRRRRR |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|03:59 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| | arrrrrg | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Shut the fuck up. | ] |
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
like i said, im done helping people with their "relationship" problems! i dont know why i let myself help in the first place. jesus, its just like dealing with Kym white again. Oh just fucking kill me now.
FIN |
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| Brett???? |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|12:58 am] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  WOOP! | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | nightmare of you | ] |
Im talking to brett,
he's my new best friend.
woop woop.
he's a cute boy
=]
PS:screw new years. thanks |
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| christmas... |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|07:29 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| | IM SO FUCKING BORED! suck it. | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | IPODIZZLE | ] |
I hate.
FIN |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|11:14 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  hehe | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | 30STM | ] |
So drivers ed was LAME
but mykees drive wasnt so scary because he did really good this time. Well, we were in class, he fell asleep and started snoring and then i woke him up and he recited lines from little rascals. Which then made me want to watch it. So im going to watch it now.
Myspace is being slow. wtf is this?
FIN. |
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| Herm.... |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|03:18 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  Im thirsty | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | 30 Seconds To Mars | ] |
So today is a lazy day...im scared for tonight. I think this boy Brett is going to call me... He lives in Ohio?? Its windy out :] and i like it. Its rainy out... and i like it as well :] My voice is raspy today. I sound like i did when i was little. My mom burnt my grilled cheese today. It was kind of gross, so i didnt eat it. My parents were watching like an 8 year old episode of saturday night live and Hanson was singing so they were arguing weather or not they are still singing. It was quite entertaining. On Sunday, i saw a really hot guy at target. My mom knows him, hes in a band. He has amazing hair. And hes hot...very hot :] I love how random my journal enteries are. I talk about wind and rain and grilled cheese and Hanson. :] YES!
FIN. |
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| Today should be a good day. |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|11:41 am] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Gregory And The Hawk | ] |
Today should be a good day. Why? I dont know. Im just making it a good day. Im tired of having bad days. :] AND, im in a really good mood right now too because i opened a present and i got an ipod :] im excited. Then i had wrap it up again. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|02:10 am] |
| [ | MMMood |
| |  uggh | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Tainted Love | ] |
Today was a bad day. Went to bed at 730 AM woke up at 10:00 AM went christmas shopping with pissed off parents. Came home wraped all the shit, put it under the fucking tree, went up stairs watched a movie and fell asleep,bad conversation with mykee [[please forget about what we talked about]] I just want this whole entire day to be erased and forgotten. Forever and ever and ever and ever :]
End. |
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| I love how when |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|01:18 am] |
| [ | MMMood |
| | IM ENRAGED!! ARRRRG! | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Nothing. i cant stop coughing | ] |
I love how when I help my friends out with their problems, they get all pissed off because i tell them whats really going to happen or i tell them to stop thinking the way they do about themselves. It just amuses me how i waist MY fucking time trying to help my friends and they shove it down my throat like a pile of shit. So you know what, if youre my friend, and you want me to help you with one of YOUR problems, thats too bad, because im done. But if you absolutly positivly need me to help you with something. Then i'll help, BUT ONLY IF YOU COOPERATE. Otherwise, i give up on helping others in their time of need. |
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| What i hate |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|01:57 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| | Kind of annoyed. kind of not. | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | Gregory And The Hawk | ] |
This is what i hate. Ok, so people that dont know how to use their own inside jokes. They have to get into other peoples. Thats like a pet peeve. Its like what the fuck? cant you be creative and think of something else on your own instead of jumping into someone elses? I know this sounds stupid. Because when someone told this to me I was like oh whatever thats lame. But i guess that when it happens you get a sence of jealousy and it almost hurts?? Cus, its between you and that other person. Not someone else, just randomly. Its been hapening alot lately. Not with the same person but with alot of people. Joke around with all your friends all you want, but, whats the point of an inside joke when you dont keep it that way? I guess i dont get it. I think its shit though at the same time. Especially when the persone you have the most fun with "agrees" with you and then does it. What the hell? I just hate it. I think thats what you call hypocrytical right? yes i think so. [[ i could never spell that word correctly ]]
So i didnt go to school today. Im glad though. Im not going to befriend a tree anymore. Cus its done with now. Im not needed for it anymore. Hmm.
I finally stoped coughing up blood. But im still having a hard time breathing. Not just from coughing. But when im not coughing i cant breathe right. Its weird. I need an oxygen tank. That would be cool, cus then when someone pisses me off i can hit them with it then take a breather when im done.
Today i thought about something that happened in pre-school. I dont know why. But i remember it so clearly. I remember, it was snack time and i went to go sit in between Brendan Jeffers and Katie [[ my cousin ]] and then this one kid that liked katie shoved me off of my chair so he could sit next to katie. So then i stood up, shoved him back off the chair and kicked him and i remember saying "this is my chair stupid, go away." I dont know how and why i remember that, but i do and it makes me laugh when i think of it. Cus it kind of shows that i dont like being shoved off of chairs and if i ever am, i do something about it. :] So dont shove me off a chair. cus ill shove you back then kick you. Oh yeah then i remember we got time outs in the corners on the little stools. Then that day the teacher said since i hurt another kid, i couldnt do the thing that i liked the most and so she asked what i liked to do the most during free time and i lied and said i liked painting. So i went to play with my blocks that i brought everyday. I miss pre school. Except not. |
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| so today i did my first drive... |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|01:29 pm] |
| [ | MMMood |
| | I still cant stop giggling | ] |
| [ | MMMusic |
| | BRATZ! HHAHAHAHAHAHA! | ] |
So i had my first drive today with the instructor for drivers ed. [and yes i have driven before and i drive all the time] But i was nervous driving with a stranger in a car ive never driven before and when im nervous i giggle.. ALOT like to the point where i can not stop. So when mykee was driveing, i strated laughing and the lady told me to stop, then i started laughing again only this time she got mean about it. So throughout the entire time of mykees drive and my drive, i giggled the entire time and i couldnt stop and then before the driver when we were waiting, i started getting cold and my teeth were chattering really loudly. Cus i was nervous,
ANYWHORE!
On the next drive mykee and i are going to have fun with it and bring a cd. most likely the NIne inch nails CD with the song "closer" on it and were going to sing.
"You let me penetrate you" *360 TURN!*" <3
Oh and then i drove home from my grandmas by myself and her driveway was snowy and icy and i slid across the street and almost hit a car and created road rage :] it was fun. But i think i almost shit myself. |
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